Life Schedule

I'm having a hard time figuring out what I want to do and how it's all going to fit in my life. I've been trying to get myself geared up to study for the GMATs for the past few years and I've decided that 2008 is the year I will actually do it. And by do it, I mean study. Perhaps even take the test.

But what am I going to do if I end up scoring well on the exam? IF I apply for b-school and IF I decide to attend, will I have time for life - home, work, school, and everything else? We're planning to start a family soon and I don't know how everything will fit together.

What if I go to b-school and get my MBA and then turn into a stay-at-home mom. Will it be worth all the time and effort? And then once I reenter the workforce will all my hard work be consider dated?

I had a conversation with my boss last night about going back to school and she basically said that an MBA is not valued at my company in a traditional sense. The company wants me to explore my interests and help me reach my goals, and if that means getting my MBA, then great. Otherwise, they would help me if I decided I wanted to become an underwater basket weaver. It's great... but it also kind of sucks.

I'm so confused! I'm going to study and we'll see how that goes. Maybe I'll take the test and then just be really proud of that. It could be like getting my real estate license, which was just the result of wanted to take a test and feel that kind of pressure again.

Gah!

Korean doll

Korean doll
Originally uploaded by rslyn

Tony and I just had dinner in Fort Lee, NJ at a delicious Korean tofu joint. I saw this creepy doll with what appears to be painted on double eyelids!

This is what it all boils down to...

This is what it all boils down to...
Originally uploaded by rslyn

Chinatown fun

Chinatown fun
Originally uploaded by rslyn

Chinese people are so fun!

We saw lion dancers for a new store opening, ate greasy dim sum, and shared a table with four strangers!

Chinatown fun

Chinatown fun
Originally uploaded by rslyn

Chinese people are so fun!

We saw lion dancers for a new store opening, ate greasy dim sum, and shared a table with four strangers!

Chinatown fun

Chinatown fun
Originally uploaded by rslyn

Chinese people are so fun!

We saw lion dancers for a new store opening, ate greasy dim sum, and shared a table with four strangers!

Cut the strings!

Cut the strings!
Originally uploaded by rslyn

I see a lot of people in the city wearing their nice wool or cashmere coats who forget to cut the strings holding the back flaps together.

Disgusting

Disgusting
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This is a picture of a girl gets off at the same subway stop I do on the way to work. I`ve seen her a few times and I've only noticed her because of her ridiculous rain outfit. She carries a huge Coach logo'd bag and wears gigantic Coach logo'd boots. She also sometimes wears a matching scarf. It's like in the cartoons when a "before" goes in and the store rattles and spits out the "after" -- except she still looks like a "before."

Getting hit by an oncoming train

Getting hit by an oncoming train
Originally uploaded by rslyn

I have a bad habit of visualizing myself getting hurt. A lot. When walking down stairs I think about falling and breaking my arms, legs, ankles, and wrists in extremely awkward angles. When walking up stairs I picture falling forward and knocking out my front teeth. When I wait for the subway I sometimes watch it come into the station, feel the woosh as it passes me, and then see myself get hit, while my stomach does flip flops.

Every time I picture these things, my limbs ache, my teeth hurt, and I physically cringe. But I can't help it. I think that it's a subconscious method of self-preservation--my hand always hovers over the stair rail, I step back from the subway--and I enjoy sharing my gory stories in detail.

Yum! NYC bagels!

Yum! NYC bagels!
Originally uploaded by rslyn